Oye! Yay! Eww! Ahhh! Aye! MmmMmmGood!

Ay, Mi Cabeza

I need to have a split screen blog. Two colums if you will (Jeremy, Lehmann - help me out here). I need one colum for how insanley happy I am, for the weekend, for the tourney, the girls, the boys, the coaches, the parents, the spirt.
And I need one colum for my arm, my legs, my mind and my eyes. I need to express that for two weeks I have not stopped ULTIMATE. From atlanta to this morning, there has been running and pushing and yelling and trowing - and OOOH the THROWING. I have never felt better, and I have never been in more pain.

Bullets, b/c everyone knows everything already -
- my girls kicked more ass than anyone thought was humenley possible.
- lublin, just huge amounts of respect for her, great great coaching
- killer cups, wings, deeps, block after block, turn after turn, point from hell
- the boys looked hot
- i need to go to college - hehe college ultimate boys, and woohoo college ultiatme girls - greatest people ever
- I hucked a lot. my hucks are getting better
- my arm is spasaming randomly - COOKED
- my eyes need to close and stay closed for 8+ hours

Switch Back to -
- I love my mom
I miss my mom, and my brother, I care about him more than i thought i did, and he has the ability to make me ready to jump on a plane to boston to be with him in - seconds, and in the same day make me want to kill him.

- SENDERO - Spanish - somethings gotta give.

I need a weekend, a movie, a couch, a sholder, a pillow, a hug. A frisbee, a huck, a deep cut, an inside out backhand. I NEED A Camera, another movie, an advil and a huge bottle of water.

SHORT SUMMARY
- i love ultimate
- i am in pain
- i need sleep
- i love my family
- my brother passed out
- my apartment has mice

Interesting

I am not offically "wooohooo-ing" happy
but I am not at all sad or depressed

normal right now -
I think
maybe so
feels sorta good
my head hurts
im hungry
weird

Possible Titles for this entry

-Home Sweet Home,
-Done and Done
-Proud, Happy, Confident,
-Ahhh the power of Arnica,
-Wooooohoooooo Ultimate...

The UPA should have made a T-shirt that said "I survived the Junior National Atlanta Try-Outs" I know all the girls would have bought them - Between broken fingers, a screwed Knee, a busted sholder, many many rasberries, jammed fingers, about 7 games, 6-120yrd sprints and frog jumps - I am proud to say that the atlanta try outs went rather well.

Saturday - Introduction to the group, nice little name games, - awesome counslers and coaches. warm up running, SERIOUS warm up streching, and into the drills. We did a play on ping pongs - running in a circle with another person so you just had consecuitve throws - i had really nuce inside out back hands and flicks. Then a simple go to drill where my throws were pretty nice, and many completions were made with me on the floor. We did hot drills over the corse of the weekend, go to drills, sky drills (huck), a variation of the four corners, nice defensive drills, a great give and go huck drill, and the FAMOUS, TRIANGLE of DEATH DRILL. Great streches, great playing. The girls were awesome, the scrimmages were great - a little frusturation because much of the time it felt like a pick up game, they wouldnt organize themselves at all, the endzones looked horrible, one girl would pick it up and put it out to a single cutter in the endzone with two defensive players on her - With the rest of the team still running the the endzone - talk about irritating.

Here is what I realized: I compare myself to Joe and Trig and Iggy who are the best players I know. The "greatest girls" are not Joe and Trig and Iggy. Girls are good. I am not that bad. I need to learn how to run. I need to learn how to sprint faster and farther. I have a great feild sense. Lehmann is a constant voice in my head. I am smarter than a lot of ultimate players who have ++ experience.

Joe and Trig made my weekend. They were the hottest of the hot, the coolest of the cool, fastest of the fast, the sexiest of the sexy, the skillest of the skilled, and the most lightly Buttered, BURNT TO CRISPS BALLS OF ASH Ultimate players who kept on pushin for 2 days. They were my inspiration, there glances made me push harder, their presence made me box out, and jump higher, and lay out, and kick ass. Glancing over to the other feild, I saw trigger sprinting, and I ran faster, I saw Joe breaking a mark and I threw a sick fake, I saw them both layout - and jump higher than anyone else, I saw them talking to Tina and I took a deep breathe, I saw them kick ass and remebered when I met Joe in the Gym, and Trigger on the field - I remeber joking with them that Trig should be a captain over joe and pabs, I remeber Iggy being sick, and trigger being fast and joe being tall and I said - Damn I can do that. I am on my way. Atlanta was the greatest ultimate experience of my life, 16 hours of stright OD ultimate, and I came home Happy with how I did. March 31st is the date we find out. As of now, I proudly, confidently, happily am thinking i did not make the team. But i had the most fun, and the greatest time. And I can pretty much say that where ever Worlds will be held in 2006, I will be there.

Flight C01161

Tomorrow at 1:45 Trigger, Joe, and I are boarding a plane and going to Atlanta. Last week in Burlington nine girls and twenty five boys tried out. 18 people make each team. I applied in December. I knew I did not have a shot. I am a day away from going, and im thinking "I dont know if i dont have a shot at all." That hurts my head, and allows me to feel nervous. As scary, as exciting, as nerverecking as it is, I know that in 30 hours I will be in a city with 30 of the greatest High School Ultimate Players in the country. In 48 hours, I will meet the girls I am competeing with, the girls I will play against either in worlds, or amherst, or college. I am going to see how good I can be, how good i need to be, how good i want to be. In the past two weeks, it got a little serious.

Best Best Wishes to
Joe and Trigger,
To Lehmann and the rest of the Boys going to DREW this weekend (ahhh
Adam is starting?) and
And Hugs and kisses to my girls who are going to scrimmage
against Stuy saturday.
I hope the weather holds up for us all.

Ultimately ...

Today was a great day. Sounds like the opening line to a cheesy journal entry, which in many ways I suppose a blog entry is like. But yes, today was a great day. Just walked in my door after driving to and from Baltimore with Lehmann and trigger, laughing and talking and sleeping for me... to see Jessie play her first Ultimate tournament.

A couple great thoughts came out of my head today... odly enough.

1 - I really need to get more sleep, and start managing my time better. So in an instance like tonight, when i can get a head start on work - or even do work thats due tomorrow, I should do that, instead of blogging.

This leads into preparing this week for Atlanta Try-Outs.

2 - Both good and bad ultimate thoughts. I realized that i was a much smarter ultimate player than i thought i was. And looking back on last year when i was on the sidelines just yelling spirited-pump-up-your-team- things, i can now be ont he sidelines, see the holes, see whats open, and yell decent advice.
b) My throws are getting better until my head really gets into them. I was fine, and then was looking at lehmann and taking advice and my back hand was going farther and looking at lot nicer than before. Proud of this - i became curious as to exactly what i was doing that made them nice, and in thinking about it - I lost the throws complelty. Couldnt get them back so much, especially after being in my head, and being truly embarresed of the inconsistency.

3 - Jessie is awesome

4 - Lehmann is awesome.

5 - Kat is a wonderful and patient woman. Thank You.

jessie

maybe baltimore
maybe sleep
hmmmmm?

Chocolate milk

I had a glass of chocolate milk this morning with my breakfast,
I drank some, there was still some left
it got me thinking ....
heres the question

is the glass half empty or half full?

my grandmother asked me this question about 4 years ago when i was down in the dumps. I looked up at her and smiled, and said "silly baba, half of it is full and half of it is empty" she grinned, leaned over kissed my forehead and said " sweetie thats why i love you"

who knows what this says -

Sitting, exhausted, confused, happy, sad, angry, and peaceful
oh my goodness, i actually feel all of these things.

What do i feel like you ask?
I feel like a trick birthday candle, that is just a shining light.
People try and try and try to blow you out and they cant,
Maybe you flicker, but you never fall, maybe the glow dimmers, but it never fades completely.
Life was too good - maybe
Well they say misery needs company
Maybe misery demands company
Am i one to say if I’m not miserable?

What are the similes and analogies of life?
The metaphors, personifications and symbols of the day,
Why do we learn the things we do, say the things we say, and feel the way we may,
Why am I so bitter and selfish, but so grounded and self-assured,
Why do I know I don’t have all the answer, but feel content at the same time?
Why do others reach for the starts in the sky?
When you could reach for the star in yourself,

I can sit here and laugh, laugh
about the wrong doing and the right things done
i can blame my self for saying the wrong thing, but i wonder in whose mind was it wrong,
why are thing wrong if people disagree with them,
why am i taking this position - because i am on the other side, the darker side of the green hill

I think about people who bring others down,
the ones that bring others up,
The hugs that make everything okay,
The hugs that make you burst into tears
I love the people, I love the person who knows im not okay –
who says the thing i don’t want to hear, the thing he knows I have to
i have so much love it frustrates me, makes me cry even more.
i have so much love out of such agitation i feel my head intertwining and tangling and going "ahhhhh"
wanting to cry from sadness, wanting to cry from peacefulness, and luckiness, and wanting to cry because you're just pissed off.
I want to cry because i don’t know what the future hold, i don’t know about college and friends and nationals and worlds, i don’t know about siblings and parents and houses,
I don’t know i don’t know i don’t know
I like that

Questioning and anticipation make the world go round

What movie do you belong in?

I think im addicted - but WHO CARES IM A POWER RANGER!

Power Rangers Movie!


What movie Do you Belong in?(many different outcomes!)
brought to you by Quizilla

What Random made up thought from Pirates of the Caribbean are you?

You are... 'Wait, this is supposed to be a
punishment?' Yeah, I'm a little confused, too.
Stuck on a beautiful deserted island with a
shitload of rum and Captain Jack Sparrow...
What's not to like?! If you want to leave this
place, you are CRAZY!


What random made up thought from Pirates of the Caribbean are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

What finding nemo character are you?

man! they work all the time!

What Finding Nemo Character are You?
brought to you by Quizilla

mmmm mmmm good

I just read jessie blog.
mmmm..... such a smile ..... at such peace.
Jessie is playing ultimate, and loving ultimate.
I love playing ultimate. Ha! like people needed to hear that, yet again.
21 girls are coming to practice every morning. they look like ultimate players, they have a decent idea of when to cut, where to throw - how to throw.... I am playing ultimate on a girls ultimate team - this just happened - i dont know when, remeber being a little like - "ugh" becuase they knew, well nothing about the sport. The girls look so good, OH MY GOD, they look so good! maggie has sick throws, maddie is dam fast, sara's back and excited, rachel's making grabs, amanda is all over the place all the time - she needs someone to throw to her deep - erica's gotten wow better, the freshman - new girls who dont know what theyre doing, so easily influenced, so excited, so many, so happy. I remeber saying "well when more girls come..." or "when you recruit your friends" but honestly i dont think we can have too many more peopl join the team.

the guys look good
lehmann is playing - he looks good - he says hes getting old whenever i see him after he plays - but i realized yesterday in trying to describe a throw he made, and a cut and well " something/everything about lehmann playing ultimate is just right. It works for him... all of it" Just real flow.

Red Hook on sunday for Brenda womens pickup - excited.

I go to Atlanta in 18 days to try out for worlds. ha ahhhh haha ahhhh - hmmmm?

So much to say, going to let today sink in - but
Man - need to go to college!!!!! yet for the first time, im happy i'm not. (shhhh)
I love outdoor practices,
ROCK ON JESSIE!