so my complete and utter happiness is wearing off a tiny little bit tonight. Im feeling pretty crumy, my head is really hurting and my throat is like whoa... not letting me swallow, my glands are all swollen and im just felling like UGH!. Im sad because i dont want to be sick... i get sick every year at christmas.. consecutively for about 6 years ive been sick beggining today until the day or two after christmas and its really really a horrible feeling. My brother is coming home tomrow, and he makes me feel really happy but i havent talked to him in a while and its sad. My friend ben is another one who doesnt answer his phone and i wanted to talk him. I had to go to the orthodonist today which is never ever fun, but i had an unbelivable walk over there and i was happy that i was still as happy as i have been, even though i felt sick this morning i was feeling better. Walking home in the rain probably was not a smart idea, and im stupid for that. my mom and i arent really seeing eye to eye on everything now either. we dont know how to deal with the other one being so busy because in the past we have always been there to do whatever the other one needed. we cant do that anymore and its a huge change in our relationship. Im a little worried about my friends because there hasnt been the happiest mood hanging over us and i just wish everyone happy thoughts and no stress over the holidays but hey! isnt that idealistic. I have work to be done, that i really dont want to do, which is making me really really really quite sad, and people i want to talk to have work to be done that they dont want to do but have to. i hope ive not taken away anyones wind, and we can all be happy healthy and stress free over the break... four more days. just four more days.... i have a habit of pushing my self until i can crash and its not the best idea so im going to try and work on that. otherwise hopefully ill get some sleep.
Posted by abrichte at December 17, 2003 07:44 PM | TrackBack